boyquim

grr.

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 22:45:38 GMT

It's been two months of me without DSL. I won't post the whole story because I don't plan on this being a rant, but the bottom line is PLDT SERVICE SUCKS ASS. If they were any slower I'd be crapping my ass off. That aside, on to my real story.

It's 6am, and anyone who knows me well enough would understand that I didn't wake up this early. I've been thinking about all the stupidity that's happened in my life, what I should do about it, and how I'm probably gonna be my lazy self and not do anything again. It's almost like I'm waiting to become sick of myself. Even now that nearly all the bboys are done with college I still don't feel that urge to become something great. Hell I still don't even feel like doing homework. And yes, I still do have homework. Dammit.

Change is just so difficult. I mean, I believe in pain and pleasure being strong factors for motivation, but I don't seem to be getting enough of either. It's like I'm perpetually stuck in the middle. I dunno. Maybe I do need a girl. Then again, I don't want to be this crappy when I'm with her. It'd be a little too unfair.

Anyway I just wanted to get that out of my head. Hopefully I'll look back on this one day and laugh.

random ramblings.

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 16:46:01 GMT

Purity isn't perfection. It's truth.

Fr. Prudencio Macayan

Mon, 09 May 2005 07:52:16 GMT

Our high school class moderator died last Saturday. I only ever got to see him during our homeroom period, so I can't really say that we were close. However, it wasn't too hard to find out what kind of a life he actually lived.

Everyday he wore the same short-sleeved barong, and to be honest, this was the only outfit I saw him wear for the whole duration of our high school lives. He never wore anything that seemed pricey, and really adhered to that simple life priests (and all of us actually) are called to lead.

Though somewhat poker-faced he took the time to joke around with us, albeit sparingly. At times he wouldn't even laugh when he told jokes, so we had to figure out whether or not he was even playing around. However, this was his character, and we soon learned to enjoy his rather firm personality.

Whether or not he actually did get mad at some people for stepping on the grass and picking leaves from trees I'll never know. We were his last moderating class, and I'm just glad he stuck around for us. He showed us how man really can live in simplicity, so long as he possesses an honest intent to.

May he enjoy the fruits of his perseverance.

woohoo

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 20:01:49 GMT

after years of being broken, and a sony service center telling me the cost of repairing it would be 10 thou, i decided to open up my trusty md player - take it apart and look at its insides. actually i'd done this many times before, the useless geek that i am... it's just that now i actually tried to do something that might fix it.

i noticed one of the printed circuits was torn, and probably was the cause of it not working. so i taped it up. slim chance of it getting repaired by such an action, but heck, it actually did work again. and i'm happy.

now i won't feel so alone anymore. i'll have my music.

hmm...

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 09:29:19 GMT

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Your first full name
Your personality rates a	7
your best quality is	deep inside ur a good person
your worst quality is	you feel lonely sometimes
this is because	you are who you are

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weird... I tried my name again, and it never went back to this result...

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 19:55:59 GMT

I don't like sleeping in the same room with someone... everybody always turns up the air conditioning too high! I have to go out of the room every once in a while to thaw off... then when I get hot I go back in again! argh. :p

Well, that's all. I'm just so bored... and I can't sleep. It's too cold. hehe =)

Lauren said to write this down, so...

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 16:16:43 GMT

I spoke with "strawberry wine" on the phone today. Hehe they were at Max Brenner, and I was home waiting for myself to get fatter. I said "Hi!" and she went "Dude, you're a psycho." Hahaha well that's pretty much it. The sweetness of it all =) hehe

Oh yeah, Lauren, don't send me that message ever again. It's scary. hehehe

no play makes lorenz a dull boy...

Tue, 23 Dec 2003 16:49:20 GMT

I have (or rather, am stuck with) a 200 Mhz Pentium computer. For those of you who are computer illiterate, let's just say that my computer's been with me for a very long time. I can't even listen to my mp3s while surfing coz it uses up all the juice. And did I mention that it can't play divx movies? Even Flash animation skips. That's all, just wanted to share my frustration...

Please give me a new one Santy Claus... PLEASE.

Oh, and a Merry Christmas to all! Happy Holidays!

found me watch!

Fri, 31 Oct 2003 16:00:34 GMT

I was beginning to feel as hopeless as usual today but when I got home, I found my watch. It really made my day.

I like this sem break.

Leonardo's Fiasco

Sun, 12 Oct 2003 15:04:44 GMT

For all those involved, sorry for ruining the night. I feel real silly right now. Silly.

regrets...

Wed, 08 Oct 2003 13:14:27 GMT

I miss the feeling of happiness. Uncertainty has had quite a toll on me, and past mistakes haunt me every night as I lay in bed. I have fallen into something that will forever cause a change in my life's outcome, and I am very much unsure of whether or not I will be able to recover. Things will turn out different, regardless.

I just wish that I'll get to come back.

ISP Bonanza

Mon, 22 Sep 2003 14:57:02 GMT

It took me 200+ retries to connect to the internet tonight. Hmm...

There's a first time for everything...

Mon, 01 Sep 2003 16:13:31 GMT

First time to ride the LRT2!
First time to ride the MRT!
First time to go wall climbing!

First time to study for the wrong exam...

Magic Square!

Thu, 24 Jul 2003 12:50:16 GMT

I made a 5x5 magic square. Hurrah for me.

shit.

Tue, 08 Jul 2003 14:15:02 GMT

Some days are just mean to piss you off.

In my accounting class, the "Professor" got angry at me for pointing out a correction in my quiz grade. What an idiot. Then in my Political Science class, the teacher starts talking about how the Church keeps meddling with government affairs, and ends up saying that the allegations against my uncle are true. Yet another idiot. Later on I went to play billiards with some b-boys, to perhaps make myself happy again. (I guess I'm the idiot here, thinking they wouldn't mess with me) Then one of them, who I'll place under the name "Nitch" for confidentiality's sake, decided to irritate me some more by not letting me play. Good thing Iks arrived or I would've gone nuts, and maybe even snapped. Nobody wants that.

On the brighter side of things, at least I wasn't too depressed today. I set it aside to almost let out some anger. That's enough of a healthy habit for me I think.

just a thought...

Sun, 06 Jul 2003 16:09:31 GMT

Although love may be unconditional, it still yearns for reciprocation.

It's yo' birthday!

Thu, 26 Jun 2003 14:17:53 GMT

Thanks to a well-crafted birthday greeting (created by Lars) and the subsequent replies HE sent, another person has added me into their "weird people" list (I might have been there already, but hey, now it's for sure). Damn.

By the way, I have to say that I honestly am learning in...

Tainted for Life

Sat, 07 Jun 2003 23:58:25 GMT

For all those who would know what I'm talkin' about, please disregard the news. Papers can be quite scandalous, but some people just give them reason to be. Maybe they don't feel loved or somethin'.

My unc is a nice guy, and I don't really know what got into his former secretary. Whatever happens though, he's damaged for life. Even if people end up believing him as innocent, which by the way seldom occurs with the media, it's still gonna hurt. Some people already are abandoning him, even those who should be his main protectors. I guess people's minds get so clouded sometimes that they become idiots. They lose sight of what's important, even what their ideals are based on.

Perhaps they should know what betrayal feels like.

'goin to sleep.

Thu, 15 May 2003 20:02:54 GMT

I just got my transcript yesterday. I can finally look for a school now. Woohoo.
...to be concluded. hahahaha

Iks and Bertt, this is for you.

thoughts...

Thu, 08 May 2003 14:49:33 GMT

It is often said that life's unfair, but most neglect the fact that sometimes the unfairness lies in our favor.

I'm Out.

Wed, 07 May 2003 23:20:26 GMT

I've faced many troubles in the past, but for the first time in my life, I've reached a point where I don't know where to turn. I realized just how much of an unsure future I have, and how big a portion of my youth will be sacrificed because of my carelessness. It's ironic really, because I think this stemmed from a belief that youth should be cherished, for it only comes in a short period of our lives and is what most of us will remember with fondness. In a very bitter way I found out that there obviously is a price to pay for enjoying too much without lending yourself to responsibility, and I feel those pains now more than ever. However regrets are damaging, and after much reflection I hope to have none.

What I believe now is that we must know the past, but not dwell on it, that each day must be lived with happiness, and that the future can only be what we make of it.